Ha! I trick you! ):

I need to get this out so bloglings wooo lucky you. It's actually relevant to my blog theme for once! It's about this yucky life with RSD battle thing I got going on. Yea, lovely I know. Well shhh keep it on the DL but I thought that maybe I was beginning the upward swoop. Like the huge pain flares were coming less and I thought omgsh a change for the better in pain! Well...as of right now I'm changing that thought. I know I should keep that attitude and maybe it'll really happen but I got all excited and really started to believe it and I have the feelings of I huge flare. I know I need to not fall to it. But it's tricking. Hoping always gives me issues. i hadn't hoped the entire time and then I did and now I feel all sad inside. isn't that yucky? Yes yes it is. But hey, I need some days to see what's going on. A flare is coming, but we'll see what is up. Maybe something is better...then again maybe it was just one of those dumb RSD things like: "Ha! Made ya look!" except it's "ha! made ya hope! Ha made you think i was disappearing! ha! I heard your positive attitude, so now I'll flare! Ha! I trick you!"

Pout pout pout ):

Hugs?