"I Hate Your Self Control :p "

Well I had a really depressing blog posted and I realized wow, I need to lighten up. Things are not bad. Things are pretty good. I was sooo incredibly on my game in basketball today. CT and I are, alright. We're speaking, I'm trying to deal. E. and I are amazing. And the quote for the title comes from none other than him, of course. Well you know, I hate my self control too. That's what led to my depressing blog and prolly my crappy mood. I need to be able to let go and let things happen. It was my new years resolution. I'm working on it, but it still needs vast improvement. I need to just let go. I'll get there. I'll be honest. I let myself fall in love. It's so incredibly amazing but so incredibly hard for me but you know I think he really knows that and that the amazing things he says are true. It means so freaking much. And I hope, he knows that. I realized a lot yesterday (he came over) not just dumb little stuff either like big deal stuff. Like how really truly happy I am. It was good.

Also, he helped me get to a boss battle in a video game. Ha. And today I beat it. The centaurs. Ohhh pooky. Then i was attacked by a panther...I think is what it was? Maybe jaguar? I'm not sure. It was a big black cat. Oh and then zombies. So that was all very exciting haha.

hmm what else I want to be sure to leave on a happy note so maybe that's all I'll say. Cuz, he's my happy note. (: