Ich Weiß Nicht

I tried to act like I had it all together. You could probably tell I don't. But hey, that's fact. I just need to convince my heart that it's no longer his. Even though it really wishes it was. Sometimes, shit happens. I know I'll feel better but for now all that is playing in my head is what I don't have. I'll get to where I'm looking at what I do have without him, but right now, I don't know what to do. I'm just kinda here, trying to be strong. I love him so much and I'm really getting that, that doesn't matter, things aren't going back. And I just have to accept. It's going to take time. for now, I really just don't know. Ich weiß nicht.

Love you bloglings. You know I'm better than this, that I'll be just fine. I should be just fine already. I'm stronger than letting a guy control how I feel. But hey, we slip up sometimes. ♥